whenever i have an interesting thought which i decide is worth writing down, i will start to write and write write write, then leave it because i continue whatever i was doing before the thought occurred. but then i forget about it or never will myself to finish it because i’ve moved on in the analysis—there is so much happening, there is so much to know. as if information has been accelerated. certainly--this is an attack. they are on the offensive.
so when i decided to write this blog, at the moment i wanted there to have a specific beginning and a specific order because i wanted there to be some kind of progression leading up to where i am, to guide others as well as for me to trace out new paths using the body of what i know. and since this “made sense” to me, i held on to this structure until today.
i have come to realize that this kind of self-imposed arborescent and rigid structure doesn’t match the rhizomatic and fluid structure that is the unconscious/conscious dynamism of thought/space.
i think this is why information saturation is a cyberattack and symptom of an Empire on offense, because to influence the unconscious you need to offer a large set of symbols; since there will contain patterns between these symbols e.g. language, syntax, elements of design, these patterns will serve as parameters for the conscious mind and, using Freud’s term for the sake of explanation, as the logic with which the superego constructs an ideal mode of behavior for your/self in a human/world.
already here we see the movement of the outside coming in permeating a porous barrier (the self) and then going back out through that porous barrier, which might be a little less or a little more porous after the precise way the outside effected the inside--it depends on the inside--and in this way, shaping the outside: outside shapes outside mediated by a singularized inside.
in mathematical language, i visualize the manifold describing the subset of spacetime containing all these singularized insides (all the selves) as not simply connected:
i would refine the visualization further by imagining it as infinitely multiply-connected:
this arbor restricted the free flow of this project because by the time i sit here to write again or finish what i have started, i have long moved away from the chosen starting point, each passing moment a dialectical movement of that starting point to where i am today, such that where i am now might contradict who i was then.
no more! i have fully realized my task, i know what i need to do. i start here and now, (here,now)—oh look, written this way to suggest the set (x,t) = x_{\mu} for all x and t in the set of real numbers, the four-vector which describes an event in spacetime—where my mind has taken me, because at least then, at least now, the project is birthed.
i am free;
we are coming.